This video (https://youtu.be/V6ui161NyTg) changed the way I perceive myself. This happened by chance. I wouldn’t have searched for it. I never knew how much I needed that video at that point of time in my life. It answered many of my questions. People who are not the best versions of themselves right now should watch it. This is the reason why I consider it lesson number one.
You could be the real enemy in your life. You could be the one sabotaging your life and letting others inside your head. You could be the one who is bothered by outsiders, their opinions and not strong enough to defend yourself.
You hate yourself and berate yourself for your existence.
I did. I hated myself. I believed that if I didn’t fit in or if I was not validated by others the reason could be that there is something inherently wrong with me. I also believed that everyone except me is perfect. I wanted a pat on my back. Acceptance. I tried desperately to fit in.
“Please let me in your pack”, was my motto until recently. My personality was non-existent.
I'm working on myself.
I never asked myself, “What do YOU think?”.
All I did was beg others for validation. I never got it and I never felt the sense of belongingness. No one can do that for me, because only I can.
I’m enough. I’m okay with people not liking me and my ways and it’s okay.
The least I can do is to create a safer place within myself where I truly belong.
